Somewhere to Begin by Mika Jolie
โPity.โ She scoffed. โYouโre here out of pity.โ
โI donโt do anything out of pity.โ If he did, he would have never pulled a gun on a thirteen-year-old boy in the middle of nowhere in Afghanistan, ready to squeeze the trigger when the kid had drawn a fully automatic in his face. That was the nature of war. Sorrow and compassion had long been stripped out of him. After twelve years serving his country, his empathy had shrunk to something that could be accurately described as a professional concern. During combat, apathy was a necessary evil. He did what needed to be done to save his ass and his band of brothers. The same way he had reacted after seeing Colbieโs frail body pinned between the steering column and the car seat.
In the adrenaline rush, heโd forgotten his pain. The strain of physical therapy vanished, and once again, he was a soldier running toward the conflict. The entire front end of her car had crumpled with the force of the head-on collision into the trees. Windshield shattered. Her body limp, caught in a steel prison, an oily taste spreading through the smoky air.
After banging on the window in a desperate attempt to get her attention, heโd popped the door open. Locating the clip of her seat belt biting into her chest, he undid it and dragged her out of the car, away from the smell of gas. A mechanical reflex, nothing heroic.
โYou feel sorry for me. No one has come to visit me other than you, I bet.โ There was a moment, just a fraction of a second, when her face mirrored her emotions, utter devastation. Then she angled her head to a more casual pose.
But the delicate curves of her lips revealed a significant pathos of their own. She was wearing a mask. He recognized it.
โI want to be here,โ he said and meant every word. Heโd been struck by her beauty since the accident, and for the last two days, heโd been drinking her in like he was dying of thirst. Instant attraction was the universeโs way of fucking with his headโone more shitpile to add to the list of mental fuck-ups. As she adjusted her weight and moved her left hand, his gaze fell on the bare finger where the engagement ring had been. โIโll get a nurse.โ He turned to the door just as it slid open.
โComing in,โ a high-pitched voice called as the door pushed open. Zander stepped back, making room for the doctor and nurse.
โHow is it going Mr. Serrano?โ Nurse Jenkins greeted him in her Jamaican born accent.
โGreat,โ he muttered.
Immediately, Nurse Jenkins surveyed the electronic machine buzzing and clicking in a symphony of sounds. She scribbled something on the patientโs chart, then passed it to the doctor. After a cursory glance, he placed it in a slot on the wall.
โMr. Serrano, good to see you again. Iโm going to check on our favorite patient.โ The doctor shook Zanderโs hand, and then turned his attention on Colbie. โMiss Bennington, Iโm Dr. Richard Sydney, and this is Nurse Jenkins. You had a mild concussion from the whiplash along with a couple of bruised ribs. How do you feel?โ
โFine,โ she whispered.
Nurse Jenkins pulled out two pair of gloves in the holder on the wall and handed one to the doctor. They buzzed around Colbie, checking the bandage on her forehead, her vital signs, the IV, and her heart rate before stepping back.
โReady to go home?โ Dr. Sydney asked in a casual tone.
For a beat, her face became rigid with tension but then quickly settled into careful neutrality. โYes, I am,โ she answered.
โMiss Bennington,โ Dr. Sydney continued, โthose marks on your armsโโ
โTheyโre nothing,โ she cut in. โI tripped. A clumsy accident on my part.โ
Zander studied her clasped hands. He recognized the excuse to avoid the situation. An art heโd mastered since returning from Afghanistan.
โMiss Bennington, the marks on your arms are not from a fall, nor were they obtained in the course of any sporting activity.โ Dr. Sydney glanced over at Zander and then scribbled something on his notepad. โIf you are in dangerโโ
โIโm not in danger.โ She met the doctorโs questionable stare. Her face was expressionless with no sign of feelings. The shutters were drawn shut.
Lucky for her, Zander was good at reading body language. He caught the subtle way her thumb pressed on the tip of her ring finger. She was most likely ashamed, and her brain was busy racing for ways out.
Silence lay in the room. Zander folded his arms tight across his chest, watching, trying to figure out her story. Someoneโs favorite pastime had been to hit her. That was clear. If he were a betting man, heโd bet the culprit was her fiancรฉ. Feeling sick to his stomach, he scrubbed a hand over his face.
โYou can press charges,โ Doctor Sydney advised.
โIโm fine, Doctor.โ She lifted her chin in an attempt to look confident. โIโm ready to go home.โ
But her dark, hollow eyes showed she was neither.
After a slight hesitation, Doctor Sydney nodded. โNurse Jenkins will bring the release form for you to sign.โ
โI bought you a change of clothes,โ Zander said once they were alone. He picked up a cream shopping bag and handed it to her.
โYou went shopping?โ Her head shifted in his direction. When he didnโt answer, she smiled. โYouโre a sweet man.โ
โIโm not sweet.โ
She unfolded the basic white cotton tee and examined the dropped V-neck. โThis is pretty.โ
He shrugged, making a mental note to send Paige a thank you text for helping him pick out the outfit. She had insisted on the shirtโsomething about it being simple and feminine.
Colbie checked the label attached to the waist of the jeans and then narrowed her eyes at him. โHow did you figure my size?โ
He hadnโt. When Paige asked for a guesstimate, his response had been about five foot seven inches tall, curvy, C-cup breasts. โI went with a friend.โ And spent forty long minutes listening to the woman his sister had lovingly dubbed as the fourth musketeer as she scolded him for not returning her calls or text messages. โWhere is home, Colbie?โ
A shadow crossed her beautiful features, but she quickly recast her face into one of disinterest, erasing the crestfallen look. โMedham.โ
โYour parents?โ
She nodded.
โAre you going back there?โ That question was met with stony silence. Once more, he studied her finger where the diamond had been. โMarried?โ
โNo.โ
โThe night of the accident, you were in a wedding dress.โ
โIโm not married.โ
โWhatโs your story?โ
โWhat does it matter?โ she challenged, her eyes locked with his.
โDo you have somewhere to go?โ
After another long pause, she let out a long breath, licking her lips in a nervous little gesture.
โLetโs try the truth,โ he said, and waited.
โI lost control of my car and crashed.โ
Malarkey detection was one of his strength, right now, his ears were buzzing. โTell me youโre not going back to whoever left those marks on your arms.โ
Her chin tilted up, ready for battle, but her eyes welled up with a sadness no one should possess. They showed her soul, broken and damaged. Zander fought the desire to scoop her up, take her home, and pour love into her until she felt safe enough to cry out whatever pain tormented her.
The thought almost made him laugh . . . or cry . . . or both. It was the biggest joke ever because he was dealing with his own crap and had absolutely nothing to give.
โDonโt worry about me.โ She cleared her throat and tucked an unruly lock of hair behind her ear. โIโll figure something out.โ
Everything about her told his intuition she was a trap, yet he walked right in and let the door swing shut. โGet dressed. Youโre coming with me.โ